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Lost Hills

by State Shirt

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Stars Fall 03:58
Look into my eyes Let's live on forever We burned all of our regrets There is nothing more to remember When death knocks at our door We won't answer, we won't go We'll be running through the trees We won't look back, now or ever When we've reached the top of the hill We'll watch the cities fall and rebuild We'll live to see the end of the world We'll know our love will never be killed Burning down around us Everything we know laid bare When the stars fall from heaven Where will they land? Listen to my voice Let's love always together We've counted all of the stars They don't seem that far at all This is the last night. As the ashes fall from the sky The calm settles in What do we do now?
why are you scared of emptiness? why are you frightened by silence? why do you struggle with vacancy? why are you fearful of kindness? you are amongst the only ones paralyzed without the sun you can’t deny you’re on your own caught in a field that’s overgrown you can walk with the dead you can walk with the dead be alive.
there are laws of the universe, and we have broken every one the world is in chaos, how can we last another 100 years? the truth is, we were not meant to. we never knew what we had. it's not about the rising seas, it's not about the polar bears it's only about your God-given right to fuck everyone over. this is why we can't have nice things.
Dancing Sad 04:31
i envy you in a way but you always circle like a buzzard on rotting flesh it's really noble of you to keep this place so spotless like the blood was never there. all those gray hairs are from doing the opposite of what i had planned for you hold on to my hand now do you regret this at all? we're gonna find out. if you sing this song again you'll be dancing sad again if you see my face again you'll feel sorry for your sins if you feel like you can't win you'll be dancing sad again if you see my face again you'll feel sorry for your sins i miss you in a way that i cannot explain like a friend that guides you home how very naive of you so disorderly, coded, tangled and exploding follow me, forget of those dreams and all those sketches of hope they're unattainable now. hold on to my hand now do you regret this at all? we're gonna find out. am i nothing? are you near?
you’re set on destroying yourself listen to the words that you say shouting it from the rooftops it seems the whole world has gone away the risk i take to be your man i can’t take to save your life high above the rooftops no you can take your life tonight it’s so cold freeze your soul planes fly low dear god, no it’s a sign take the step and you don’t fall float away we don’t care much at all rise above and grab the lights it burns your head, you’re filled with spikes look below we are ants you can crush one by one they are all meaningless it burns your eyes it burns your eyes what have you done it burns us all it’s all undone. take down the sun
Dead Pixel 05:00
You're like a dead pixel I never see the full picture You're like a dead pixel I can't keep up with your misery What do you want from me? I left my life behind for this? You're too far gone, you're always high. The pain grows inside I'll just jump from this speeding car And leave you on your way. I think we met each other in a bad year. I've always dealt with your shit But now we are so low. Has it ever been so dark? Without the orange glow of city lights Look up to the desert sky I'm lost with you and I'm lost without you It's not enough to throw it away Just enough to drive me insane I'll try to make it all okay Just so you know, i don't care at all.
Portasoul 03:48
Betamax 04:11
hold me tight don't let go it seems tonight i want it to end, right now. my feet are old my eyes are old you are young, again. my body has failed my soul is frail it's my time to be young again you are young, again.
The Him 06:19
Some days you waste your life away These times I find no words to say A crime I once committed filled me Too much of heaven's eyes I saw through Only when meanings have no reason They're taken beyond your sense of right (and wrong) Small boy kneels, wandering in a great hall He pays pennance to the air above him White circles, black lines surround me Reborn, so plain my eyes see This is the reason that I came here To be so near to such a person I'm so tired, I'm so tired
Flight 17 02:04
Here I am


There is this recurring dream that I have. At some point in my future, everything I grew up with and everything I know about my past—the places, the memories, the pets, my family, my friends—are replaced with a sprawling empty city, devoid of any life. I drive around at night, homesick, frantically looking for any sign of my past but can only find an orange glow of city streetlights, and a maze of buildings, concrete, and asphalt—all in decay. It's taken me years of reliving this dream to finally realize what it was trying to tell me, with the help of Alan Watts: "The past and future are real illusions, that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is."

I started writing music for Lost Hills as a way to set free this illusion of past and future, to let go of the nostalgia of my childhood and release the persistent, crippling anxiety over what is to come. Lured back to the memories of my 1980s youth, Lost Hills is a collection of weird, slow-motion future-retro synthpop saturated with Betamax-modulated, reverb-drenched synths, delay-soaked staccato guitars, obsolete nu-disco grooves, ice particles floating above peaceful harmonies, along with intimate stories of loss, unmanageable fear, and paralyzing regret. A record inspired by the synthpop of the past, and a sentimental dream of synthpop from the future. Lost Hills is depressing music you can dance to.


released August 11, 2015

All songs written and performed by State Shirt (Ethan Tufts)
except "The Him" written by Bernard Sumner, Peter Hook, Gillian Gilbert, and Stephen Morris
"You are a Child" backing vocals by Snowflake (Emily Richards Nogawski)
"Stars Fall" lyrics by Ethan Tufts and Angela Heine


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